I’ve been busy. But I’m done now. After I was done being busy I had a serious relapse that luckily only lasted a few days. This time it was really 90% my own mistake; I could (and should) have stopped drinking earlier, but as you might be able to imagine:

These things don’t get easier as time advances, but that said it’s not too late to do something about it it seems. The fact that these few weeks I didn’t die of a heart attack should be considered good news I think (fingers crossed).

I let Anonymous Idiot (?) write some blog posts. The stream posts are just going to be written by AI I think. I’m going to make a separate section for them though, otherwise it’s hard to see from the covers alone which ones are human and which are Anonymous Idiot posts.

I know what happened. I won’t comment on it too much. I spent the past few months fixing up some loose ends myself, and those are largely done as well. That wasn’t exactly expected, but if you have the opportunity to ’take the shortcut’ you should take it, right. Just like 13 years ago.

Which wasn’t quite the shortcut it turned out, but it could have been.

Okay, what I want is well known, but the question is what is going to happen in my life now. What do I want, and what do others want.

And also what is real and what isn’t of course. So yeah. Well if you have lofty plans, let me know. I might just want to retire though from my nonsense job as whatever this is. I think a few years of holiday are warranted. If I really get back to good health again and all that you can ask for some very peculiar things.

I might do it. I might not.

If we take really big topics (I’m not entirely sure if we should, but then again), then my (seen from the Western and especially American) political perspective is not a problem. Look at it from the other side: I’m one of the few people with a Western passport that some might be willing to talk to.

They have my records. They know who I am and how I think. I’m not fake.

But those are the very big topics. Doing laundry, cleaning my room, and making breakfast for myself again for the first time in many, many years, are far more feasible topics at the moment I’d say xD

Although, in my case you know what you get. I’m not that lethal myself. But don’t cross the line too much either.

Because yeah.