All right, so where was I. Yeah I’m sober again. That was a fairly serious relapse, although it was nothing compared to the past few years.
However, it was still not good obviously. Surely this will happen again, but at the very least one has to make sure that it doesn’t stay this long. It makes no sense anyway. Well. I mean. If I want to die I guess I’ll do the quick method. This nonsense has been dragging on for too long anyway, and let’s be honest: Watching a bunch of freaks with a shitshow that completely ruined life while being forced into serious alcoholism isn’t exactly the most exciting of things to do in life.
If that needs explanation then I’d advise a taste of your own medicine. Just try it huh. And die with it.
I did not know what to expect before I came here. On one hand I could hardly imagine around 75 days of being completely sober. It seemed completely unfeasible to me.
On the other hand I was pretty sure that if left alone things would improve very considerably. I guess both things happened. I’m not sure if that’s a good or a bad thing. I mean, my life is over to me anyway, so yeah.
But I’m mentally fairly okay now; there is just that unfinished business that is going to be solved one way or the other, trust me on that.
But on the medical front I’m doing okay. If I do everything super-alright I still have time get down to 106kg. It’s unlikely, but it is possible in theory. So let’s try.
I might seem a bit grumpy, but I have improved a lot in some 6 weeks or so. It’s just that absolutely no one is going to get away with this, that’s all.
