Let’s go back a bit more. This is the First of May 2012 (!)
A little bit after finishing my first ever olympic distance triathlon, it must have been 10 AM or so. I was thirty then. Just in much better shape. I was in the form of my life. I had just spent three months mainly on training and resting and doing the uni stuff that needed to be done. I finished it in two and a half hours, and that was including the fact that I thought the run was over after 5km…and then had to do another 5km, so I ended up having to walk a kilometer or two. However I made it solidly until the end. That year on my birthday I had started training again by running a 21km with a whole bunch of people to celebrate my thirtieth birthday (so that 14th of February 2012, (I finished it in the fantastic time of 2 hours 15 mins and some seconds, lol. A month later I finished one in 1:50 which obviously was quick improvement). The next training/race (if I remember correctly) was biking 玉山 (Jade Mountain), during the first week of March, which is 72km to 2600m altitude. Not too steep, but a long climb. It’s not too hard, really, at least not when you’re young. And so I did a big race every week from then on (310km in the hills in 13 and a half hours all by myself still counts as ‘epic’ in my dictionary, and boy did that hurt), which ended here. I had planned a bit of a rest for now, and then continue training with as end goal the half ironman.
I expected that to be achievable in another month or 2, maybe 3. Something very different happened.
Fluent in Chinese, (some) normal people around me, best chess player on the island by far, able to do triathlons, just very fast by default, energetic, and I could even almost choose who I wanted to get really serious with, although I hadn’t seriously been with anyone for a very long time.
(Not that I thought like that at the time. I just did not know what to do. I did not even know that some things were exceptional. There never was a single expert who would just simply point that out. Experts do other things. They hide in their ivory towers so they don’t need to show off their incompetence. They have incompetent people to do other things, both narcissists and normal people. The narcissists cry, the monolingual people are monolingual, half the locals are in awe, and the others actively engage in the important activity of dying in agony; God Why Does This Dude Not Have A PHD So We Can Just Officially Suck Each Other’s Cock To Get A Living, Right. It almost sounds like a bunch of entrepreneurs together doing the important job of doing business, doesn’t it.)
I messed up there. The only thing that is really true is that I should have been a bit more forceful with things, and made up my mind more clearly and then act to it, because this was the final point where there was no intervention by a bunch of medical derailed lunatics who hired a bunch of narcissists and other freaks (don’t get me wrong, some helped me a lot, there were also normal people) to conduct a bunch of the freakiest experiments the world has ever seen. It started around here, with the moral hazard who’s greatest achievement was that he quit smoking when his student aka. wife was pregnant (the man is so morally hazardous that he even got one person in class to cry with that amazing feat.).
Agony can go really deep. There was one guy who even started crying when I was the one talking to a local guy in Chinese who was having certain complaints to solve issues, and not him. I mean, I speak Chinese and you can’t so while you’re the one who’s been here for 16 years or so you cry because it’s all so terrible.
Do not worry, mr and mrs Korean. I can smell a narcissist from a thousand li afar.
Anyway, from a position of power it’s easy to ruin someone’s life, and our moral hazard had been trying to do so for a while now. He was really trying to compete and he was and is just a miserable human being. So he ruined my plans by means of his greatness. Methodology was his field right. From elementary school grade three on the methodologists have been consistently ruining my life with their greatness, so this was no exception whatsoever. But it was around here that the shitshow started that would ruin my life, and after a few months it was decisively ruined.
In reality it was very hard to do as I just said (making up your mind and go for it more forcefully), because many people were doing all kinds of weird things. They always want things done their way, even when it’s pretty obvious that I was and am the one with the knowledge/skills and not them. That alone makes you want to drink more than doing anything else. Or just go biking I guess. And ignore everything else. I even went biking in the hills (same as the ones you ‘saw’) during a typhoon, cuz who fucking gives a shit anymore right. (I fell only once, luckily without even having a scratch. I was just taking a corner — extremely slow that is.)
君穎, I don’t care what they told you and I don’t care what you think of me now. (Although that’s not completely true, but there’s not much I can do about that.) However I want you to know that they lied to you greatly to get all their greatness in and feel great about themselves, while instead of buying a mirror they could blame all their nonsense on me as part of the greatest experiment the world has ever seen, while crying their crocodile tears. Because they wanted to ‘understand my particular condition’, ‘get very important neurobiological changes in’, ‘try to get him to do everything we want’, ‘totally reprogram him’, etc, etc, etc. So they created some formerly non-existent problems, lied and manipulated a whole bunch of other stuff through and then they (unfortunately, I’m sure) ‘had no choice other than conducting this miserable shitshow’, and gave themselves unlimited amounts of time and resources to do so.
You should never have joined them. But you did.
Alas.
Anyway, we’re gonna go on with this. We’re going to delve in the world of The Great Narcissistic Freaks And Their Minions.
Enjoy your time reading this, and remember: You can always ask them for more information, because they have it available. Again, you are allowed to read and watch, but not to use it for anything else.
Good Luck keeping your stomach straight the next few weeks.
(Me in Japan after some winter run (I think) a few months ago. Of course we all age sooner or later, but the decade of torture surely did not do me well. At least I could bike around 1200km and run around 80km or so the few weeks I was there, and went from 40kg overweight to 30kg overweight. One of them great results of the greatest experiments the world as ever seen.)
