All right. So the point is that I only had one real goal in life (apart from the usual real-life related stuff) which was that I wanted to write down something at some point. I had no idea when or how, but it seemed imperative that I had to climb the academic ladder to at least be somewhat read.
If only I had known, right.
But okay, that road was ruined by the Taiwanese. But before that I actually figured that people really were reading right.
So I took the shortcut.
This turned wildly different from what I expected. I had no idea I would be able to write like I did the past thirteen years now. I consider it ‘Mission Accomplished’ though. It turned out a bit bigger than I anticipated.
I wanted to write about some socio-political stuff, but it changed into the topic of ‘life’. Also fine I guess, but really different from what I intended. But maybe it’s better like this; dry political manuals can also be written by others; the madness that I cooked up so to say could only be written down by me.
So in that respect things went okay. In some other respects it obviously didn’t.
But it was my life goal. I did lose everything though, because I did it a bit too thoroughly. Also, I wasn’t helped so to say.
Mwah.
Tsja.
The past six years should not have existed though. And people shouldn’t have been smart about a thingie or two. And twenty years of secret, not-so-secret humiliation obviously also isn’t exactly the greatest achievement the world has ever seen. And if people don’t understand that having a place to live is not exactly unimportant then you shouldn’t go into the business of telling others what to do, regardless of it being with or without a medical-psychiatric verdict. You just shouldn’t.
But on the flipside: I got in what I wanted myself as well, albeit a bit weird, angry and childish. But who cares right. I mean I don’t really like the angry part, but that it’s weird and sometimes a bit dumb I mean who cares. That’s just life.
I hope it helps some people. In between the rants and the extreme assault on my health I did try to do a decent job. I had to switch to the oral version at some point of course, but I’m pretty sure that has been heard.
I gave it my best shot.
Maybe it helps someone.
This will be continued of course. But it’s going to change a fair amount. Slowly, but steadily. But first I’d have to see what the world looks like these days. It’s been a little while, and watching fake news gets boring at some point. So it’s about time to figure out what really is going on.
